I'm leaving to Las Vegas this weekend! Driving down with my sisters and while they have a one way ticket back home to Washington, I will be making a new life for myself in the middle of the desert. With no job, no set plan, and no map written out for me. I'm finally doing it.. I'm taking a leap of faith, jumping, moving, taking chances and following nothing but my own senses. I can truly say that I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing but at the same time I am uncontrollably excited. As I sit here waiting for the laundry to dry and finishing up last minute errands, I can't help but reflect back on who I was and recognize now who I am today. I wouldn't say that I'm a different person because I have always loved, but what I would say is that I am a lot more aware. Something inside of me has waken! Leaving for College at 18, I thought I knew it all. I had my schedules, my luggage, my boyfriend, and my expectations. I left home without my family's support, without the right intentions, without knowing what was important and who I wanted to be. I never knew I was running away. Having failed ALL of that.. I've picked myself up, brushed my shoulders off and now I’m ready to try again. This time around, I know what I want and what I'm looking for.. and that's to simply grow. To learn and never give up. To forgive and make mistakes and not judge. To trust not only the intentions of others, but trust that in the end of the day, I will be okay. I want to be vulnerable and cry when I want to, laugh when I feel like it and sing to the birds. Have faith that God is all. Slow down and realize that rushing is a waste of time. I want to be able to take care of myself and eventually my parents. Then one day be satisfied with the impact I've made in this world. And last but not least, I want to accept myself as enough. I'm excited to fly through this door and flap my wings. Maybe even crash a few times, or maybe even look back and say I didn't know shit at 23.. but what I'm looking forward to most is just looking.. in all directions. So as I encounter this new and exciting journey, it's only fair that I bring you all along with me. Please stay tuned because this is only the beginning. I’ve got a long drive, job interviews, new friends to make, more tears to shed, and more boys to murder...
"oh the places we'll go.."
