It's Monday night and already I’ve turned down two invites for free bottle service. I'm very tempted to say fuck it.. get dressed and head out to The Cat House for prefunking and then Marquee for the main course. The great thing about being a female in Vegas is that we don't have to pay for anything! The bad part of being a female in Vegas is that we don't have to pay for anything! So it's very hard to keep your mind straight. But I suppose if I can stay focused here, I can do it anywhere. Last night I had a dream that I was at my best friend’s wedding. When we walked into the reception room with everything set up, we all grabbed each other, spun around, and jumped up and down screaming at how beautiful it all was. I woke up and remembered how much love I have back at home. I'm not going to lie, sometimes I wonder if moving here was the right decision. And now actually living the life here, I can see for myself that this place is not made for the weak. But maybe it’s a good thing to have my fears faced and hopefully destroyed. I'm just worried about it destroying my smile along with it. But so far since I have been here, I've already learned so much and asked those questions I never would have if I had never left home. The one thing I have to remember is that home will always be there and I've only been here for a week! I guess the water always seems a lot colder if you only dip your toes in and I'm a swimmer. I’m made for something BIG! I'm not sure what that is just yet.. but I'm confident that I'll never give up on it.
Just a little homesick but I know the perfect remedy.. A good book! :D
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